The Need to Create

I honestly wonder, why do I feel the need to create?

Why do I want to write? Why am I fascinated by the idea of a podcast? Making videos? I don’t know why I am interested in all those things, but I am, and I can’t seem to shake it. I have blogged for years on different platforms. It is something that continues to draw me back, like a bad habit.

I have always had an active imagination. My father would accuse me of having an overactive imagination. I recall as a child being quite comfortable with just sitting, playing out scenarios in my head. These often involved some spaceship or some type of science fiction battle. And, yes, sound effects were involved more often than not, much to my father’s chagrin.

But it didn’t end there. As a teen I recall constructing wild scenarios in my mind to keep it occupied while I ran or delivered papers in the early morning. It has always been so for me. My mind creates scenes, scenarios, situations. Sometimes these are rooted in reality. Often, they are completely disconnected from the real world.

I think, and I could be wrong (often am as a matter of fact), that this is where this desire to create comes from. I have always created in my mind. And now things like blogs, podcasts, and the internet in general make that creation more accessible, more real, more possible.

And so, here in the middle of my life, perhaps my mid-life crisis is to create? I suppose there could be worse.